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Posted 9/11/2007 11:44 PM (GMT 0)
I have been having a lot of suspicious thoughts lately specially where I work and my H. Because I am in a contract position now, (again and for the past 5 years!) is really getting me down emotionally. And today everything was getting to me. Its not easy
Posted 9/12/2007 4:56 AM (GMT 0)

Dear Sad and Angry,

First of all hugs to you.  I am so sorry that your having a hard time. Would you mind sharing the problems with the contract position? We may be better able to help with a bit more info.

Thank you. Stay with us and keep posting.

Posted 9/12/2007 5:46 PM (GMT 0)
hey there_

Are the suspicious thoughts along the lines of "I'm going to get laid off?" or "They're not going to renew my contract when its up"? What kind of suspicious thoughts are you having regarding work, if you don't mind sharing.

I'm sorry you're having tough times. Take it easy. Suspicious thoughts are really hard to deal with, so know that other people have gone through that stuff and i personally know its not easy. Be kind to yourself.

best_
Dan
Posted 9/12/2007 11:21 PM (GMT 0)
Yes Danxiety, I feel after my contract that will end in December, this year again I have to start looking for work. And when I talk to others they were hired after just 6 months or 4 months whereas I have been here since Jan. 2005. And now this is the 3 year and I was taken only on contract each time and every time it ended I had to start looking for another job and I could never find a permanent position or even if I find one, I couldn't fit in and would have to go. And then this place would call me again on contract. And I would accept it, as I have been looking for work. When I was called this time I was off work for 11 months! And I got it, when one of the people I knew in a previous department knew I was looking for work, she called me and was offered this contract. But inside me, I am feeling so exhausted of all this. Keeping positive is not easy

 

And the last time I was completely burnt! (I was so down and depressed) and because I didn't get medication on time from the psychiatrist I had, I really hit the rock bottom.

 

And when I got the medication it took a long time to take its effect.

 

So now when I go to work, I don't socialize with others much. I have always been a friendly person, but I am not that friendly here, and I avoid any social get together's. Not that I miss much.

 

Even today I was wondering why am I not hired?

 

I have these thought that somebody is sabotaging my chances of getting a job! This is causing me so much of anxiety

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