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Posted 9/24/2007 4:35 AM (GMT 0)
I saw the new pdoc today for a second opinion as I haven't been happy with my current one. The new pdoc wants to put me in hospital in a months time (he's going on holidays next week) and withdraw me off my clonazepam as he believes the anxiety not getting any better even with increased clonazepam is due to it being rebound anxiety.

I know the longer I stay on clonazepam the more I'll need and the harder it'll be to come off, plus there's the rebound thrown in but I'm so scared. I've already tried to withdraw twice before without success in fact they were total nightmares I don't want to go through this again. He said that he'll draw up a proper conversion to valium and once it's safely swapped to valium and I'm down to 20mg a day I'll be able to go home.

I also feel guilty that I'll have to leave the kids again. I can't keep living with this anxiety it's driving me crazy but I don't think I'm strong enough to handle another withdrawal attempt.

Posted 9/24/2007 1:12 PM (GMT 0)
Aussie...I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through. All the things that come along with panic and anxiety can be so scary, I know. I know you are feeling guilty about leaving the kids, and hospitals are scary, but maybe you should think about you and only you for a minute here, and go with the flow. I know it will be scary, but I think it is something you need. Know that we are all here supporting you while you wait for your PDOC to get back, and for the steps to be taken to get you off the Clonazepam. And, we will all be here for you when you get back too.

I wish you all the best!
Posted 9/25/2007 6:14 PM (GMT 0)
Aussie
I truly believe YOU know what is the best for you right now and I think you need to decide whether you can do the W/D and all of it at home or IF you need the hospital setting again

I feel your pain at having to leave the kids once again BUT hun........your kids do pick up the vibes from you and know mommy is not feeling good ......right......

IF you go to the hospital and come back out and are a totally better ( not totally recovered) but even 75% better is a great start ...it may just be the ticket you know .......but then on the other side of the coin this doc is going away for a MONTH ...then he wants you to go into hospital so from what I get he does not think it is an urgent thing for hospitalization RIGHT now ya know

Am I making sense .....I am trying I really am..........................lol

Bottom line is this YOU are strong and you do have the luv and support here........and in a month who knows you may have made some baby steps and gotten yourself back to being to a point of not needing the hospital ........and taking yourslf slowly down on the clonazapams

I dont have all the answers for you I am just throwing some suggesstions out to you ........

Please let us know what you do decide to do and know we are here for you always
LUVS
LYN
Posted 9/25/2007 8:08 PM (GMT 0)

Dear Aussie

Please share with us the amount of Klonopin you are taking in one day?

I did the slow, extremely slow withdrawal from Ativan with the switching to Valium and have successfully made it down to 2 mg of Valium per day. I started in January of this year.

I am not saying this is for you but it is possible.  I did this under the direct care of my Pdoc and no severe withdrawal or rebound issues have popped up. 

Only share this info with us if you choose.

Hugs and know I care for you.

Posted 9/26/2007 12:50 AM (GMT 0)
I hate this illnesss so much.

I'm on 2mgs morning and 1.5 mgs of clonazepam at night.

Since I saw this pdoc my anxiety is going through the roof, it's knowing that in a month  I have to do it so it's like an extra months suffering while waiting.

I was so bad last night that I rang the crisis team and told them some stuff I did. My 6 year old walked in and heard and started making the actions of what I said.  A small child like that shouldn't know of anything like that. I hate that my kids are seeing me in so much struggle. I've been trying to ring the pdoc but can't get through. I can't last another month like this, if I'm mentally a mess at least I should be doing the withdrawal so I have a reason behind it.

The anxiety is endless and it's leading me to depression again and bad thoughts again.

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