Whimper..................

Hi all
I'm not at my best. Not 100% what's going on with me. For the last week or so, getting moments of anxiety. I'd try to mentally push them away and did so fairly successfully. been waking up with some anxiety (I know that's common with anxiety disorder). But yesterday, it punched me down to the ground, so to speak. I finally couldn't ignore it amymore and took .25 xanax. First time I've taken any for anxiety in a loooooong time. That bothered me. I always feel like that's saying I'm losing my ground against the anxiety...I try really very hard to do what Dr. Claire Weekes said about Facing, accepting, "floating", and letting time pass. But the anxiety poured thru my veins like hot water and I burst into tears in front of my mom and friend when my friend came over to visit for a couple of hours...hated to cry like that. Didn't wanna cast a pall over the visit!!! The xanax kicked in and I did fairly well afterward but I had a feeling that maybe the next day would be bad...a self-fulfilling prophecy if I'm not careful!
Thanks for listening to me rant and worry "out loud"...I'm so tired and my time of the month is about 3 weeks late (no, no possibility of pregnancy!) Change of life perhaps? I'm 43.
Gotta run, mom beckons............
janet

Janet,
I hope by now you are feeling better. I look at our disorder as a full-time job, we always have to work on it. For me, it is another appendage, but not a good one...it's been with me my whole life. Some people can go months or years without an attack and then out of the blue...boom...it hits. I call these my "panic tests", sometimes I pass them and sometimes I don't. but I am always working on it.
Just know that this is just a "blip" in time and that you can pick up and move on and just keep on fighting!
xoxoxo
eveie

Hey sweetie .........
'I too am hoping that you are feeling better now
DONT be so hard on self IF the time comes when the med is needed..........you have done so well
One or 2 wont hurt when things get this bad .........you know you dont use them everyday so I dont think it is a big cause for you to get upset with self..........IMHO
PLease keep us posted as you know you are cared and luved here ...........
LUVS ya
LYN

Hi Janet and I agree with the others. You are allowed to have days where anxiety rises up but please do not beat yourself up for being human.
Taking a medication for what it is prescribed is perfectly fine. You have not falling back at all, in fact you help take care of yourself. Be proud and give yourself a hug for me