Laura, Thank you for your feedback. I see that this is a very supportive community and I am relieved to know I have somewhere to go with my questions/concerns. I am I will have a lot of questions...
Hi Joy, Thank you so much for your response! I am so glad there are forums like this to share information and personal stories. I will keep reading and researching about the disease and for options...
Good Morning, On Monday of this week I received a call from my GP saying my blood work tested positive for Lupus. I have had a light rash on my face and have been really sick recently with a sinus...
Sukay, I am so sorry to hear you are feeling so low. You know he would not want you to be anywhere else but right by his side. The best thing you can do is take care of yourself, focus on you, and...
How wonderful, freeing, and comforting to have a therapist who REALLY GETS IT. It seems you have found a bit of a kindred spirit and you can both learn from eachother. I am so happy that the...
LFW... Your strength never ceases to amaze me. I am sorry to hear you are having a difficult time lately. I'm gladly to hear the job is working out (at least financially); that must alleviate some...
hi Sukay, I just wanted to say that Im so sorry you have to go through this. It must be so stressful and sad. I would grieve and feel like I lost my right arm for awhile if I had to change...
Thank you to everyone for the cheers and hugs! My heart breaks when I read the posts of others in relationships (not married....just dating, like I was) with someone with BP who refuses to take...
Thank you!!!! Good thoughts and many hugs right back at ya!!!! I check in every once in awhile to try to catch up or see if I can help anyone in a small way, or add my two cents! I feel very out of...
I take topamax (200 mg. AM, 200 mg PM) for anxiety/depression and compulsive behavior associated with an eating disorder. I had to start out at very low doses and gradually increase over weeks and...
Carolsclan Thank you for your honesty....it, once again, gives me the strength to know that I am doing the right thing by walking away from someone who refuses to take responsibility for their BP. I...
Katy I was like you...I assumed, if you love someone, you stay through the good and the bad, no matter what!..... I was taught through my religion and my upbringing....but they didn't teach me the...
Katy, I am so sorry! There are too many people out there in this world for you to be with someone that would treat you with disrespect, anger, and humiliation. Find the love for yourself and walk...
(LFW...I may need your help on this one...) Hi Katy, If I am understanding your question correctly, than my answer is simple, again...LOVE has nothing to do with it, unconditional or conditional. It...
Thank you serafena, for your honesty and support and (HUGS) when I needed it the most. I appreciate everything you guys have done for me!!!...
Some of you know my story, and some of you do not. If you don't, I encourage you to read some of my previous posts back to Sept. 2007 when I joined HW looking for help. I was desparate and hopeless...
Thank you so much! Your kinds words, as always, are appreciated! My birthday was Feb. 7th, and it was also the start of the Chinese New Year....so I know it will be a great year. I am sending you...
Hi Sukay, I just may do that. I will copy some of my post, and include some other tender nuggets of things I have learned, especially the point about setting limits and focusing on what drew me to...
Hi LFW, Thank you so much for asking about me. I miss you and think of you often in warm, sunny SoCAL! It has been quite awhile, but I check in now and then, to try and keep up with everyone else....
Hi Olivia I hope you are feeling a bit better and things are going well for you! (((HUGS))))...
Thanks for the sunshine. I really needed it. I am feeling very down this weekend. I have decided, again, to walk away and leave ALOT of space between Michael and I. It is so hard to do. I know it is...
Unfortunately, when I am angry, I am not the nicest person myself. When I am hurt, I say extremely hurtful, nasty things, that sometimes are hard to recover from. I over react, I freak out, and in...
Hi Wen, I am so thrilled for you that you just keep swimming along so well. I am proud of you that never gave up and look how far you have come! Kudos to you for the sewing....I wish you lived...
Thanks for the loving advice. I expected the direct thoughts...no worries! That is certainly not the reason that keeps me from posting.....but I have a few questions that linger in my mind following...
This is why I am mad at Michael and bp today..... Michael and I have discussed how difficult the holidays have been for him, given that he is alone for the first time, living in his dad's basement,...
Things have not been so great. As I sit here typing, I'm in tears. I spent Christmas with my mom, stepdad and sisters and that was wonderful. I was there from the 24th through the 26th. Since then, I...
Hi LFW and Sukay, Thank you for your "shout out" and your concerns. I am here and I have just been lurking on the site occasionally. I have been doing ok....trying to stay very focused on me and...
Great idea....thanks for thinking of everyone! I am glad to hear you had such a wonderful family time. I had a nice time with my 15 yr. old sister this weekend. We saw some movies, she slept over, I...
Oh goodness Evan....I feel for you, and I have some wonderful stories to share and some supportive words for you. First, please believe every word of what I tell you.....YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO MAKE...
I think you two could sell tickets.... Thanksgiving was kind of tough. It was exactly one year since the last day I saw my grandad before he had his massive stroke. He held my head in both his hands,...
First, I should clarify...I have not been diagnosed with bp. At this time, I am taking topamax for anxiety, although it definitely is prescribed as a mood stabilizer and there are others on this site...
To everyone: Thank you all so much for listening to my whining and complaining and venting and crying and on and on and on.....I appreciate all of your loving, generous, kind words. I don't know what...
Cap, I am so sorry to hear of your loss....
Ciddy Iam so sorry that it seems not one adult in your life is taking you under their wing and doing the compassionate appropriate thing and getting help for you or getting you to a safe place. I...
Hi Thys and Jaim I am on Topamax and Xanax, too! Welcome to HW! Everyone is very supportive and friendly here!...
SW.....Glad to know it isn't just me..... Between my sleep apnea, from which I get no good sleep, so I am terribly fatigued all day.... and my general depression over the whole situation with...
Mogli I am so happy for you! I am so glad your appt. went well....I am so happy that your pdoc really listened and that you are relieved and satisfied with the outcome! Congratulations on making it...
I am so sorry you are feeling so lonely. Please know that you are not alone. This disorder is so devastating and it can destroy so many lives....that is why the Healing Well family is here for...
Mogli You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please go easy on yourself, as you see, your courage and determination to be well are so admirable! You recongnize your need to be on meds, despite the side...
Thank you for the advice. I have had to take xanax every day, but I am still taking the topamax as prescribed. I am trying to keep a mood chart (like a total organized geek)......and I see my pdoc on...
By they way, Do you see how my perspective changes every 15 minutes? What is up with that?...
Hi follownhosea Welcome to HW! I am sorry you are experiencing such turmoil right now. Has your wife seen her psychiatrist lately? It sounds as if she still has not found the right combination of...
Hi Familyman, Welcome to HW. I am so sorry you are hurting right now. I know how painful the manic stage of bipolar disorder can be. My ex-boyfriend of 3-1/2 years (almost 2 of which we lived...
karisa, I am sorry you are hurting. I am glad, though, that you have a supportive grandmother. It sounds like she loves you and cares for you very much. I know what its like to have parents fight...
Wen I am glad you made it to the appt. and I am so glad to hear the meds were adjusted. Hopefully this is the perfect combo. Stay Strong!...
Tonight I went out with a friend of mine...we saw two movies for the price of one (shh....don't tell)....Fred Clause (C-) and American Gangster (A+). It was nice to get out! Anyway.....the more I...
I really do appreciate all of the time you arel taking and the kind words you are sharing to try to inspire me to move forward in a healthy way. That is just not how I see things right now, and your...
Hi Wen Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. I know I can ramble and a lot, and be all over the place, but I think I have confused a lot of people...so just to clarify....I am not...
OK....I just had a thought that made me feel a bit better....especially for those of you who are familiar with my story.... He did also say that he knows he can't give me what I need right now. I...