oh yeah it sure is tortoise . i understand completely. i havent had symptom free period since i was hospitalized last november... when they put me on different meds. my doctor is through the county ,...
wow im speechless reading these replies they are so uplifting and helpful. There is a bright side to it all i just need to see it. Instead of putting myself down for my moments of creative manic...
My self view - i call it self view becuase its not quite self esteem or self worth its more how i view myself - is not exactly positive. I see myself as a person who has mood changes and psychotic...
Thanks for all the support. I will try... stay on meds... keep my sketchpad close... wait for inspiration to strike. and stick with it....
So i had a flashback the other day. an image... of when i was in the hospital for the first time. I was looking at the moon and the window with bars, the twining ivy round the metal bars with spears...
I tend to be open with friends, becuase i want them to know its not them its me (if im having mood swings or a bad day) and also i want to reduce the stigma. But with employers or volunteering im a...
I'm up and down, rollercoastery me. Luckily I have support from good friends :D And you! I'll try the dept. of rehab if i dont hear anything back in a week or 2. *wish me luck!!* Thanks Sandy :)...
Thats a good idea. I applied to the 2 temp agencies in the area yesterday. Next week at my pdocs im gonna apply for disability. And what is the dept of rehab?...
thanks srsly smitten, its good to know im not alone. I m just finally starting to realize what happened ( i must have been at least hypomanic) and freakin out about money, bills, car, savings .......
talk to your pdoc or call an emergency psych clinic they can give u something like geodon risperdal or abilify to put a tamper on the mania ( i hope im getting those names right cuz im a little up...
Well gosh, laura, that sounds a lot like my story too. Thanks for sharing and Keep hanging in there. You've been through a lot according to your signature and you're a true hero for trying so hard...
wow. good for that job, wonderful... thanks for the encouraging story. :) I will try....
hi~ i dont post on this forum as much as i post on bipolar but i recently lost a job (yesterday) from the combined effects of fibro and bipolar. Inability to concentrate, no attention to details,...
thanks tortoise~ and TTU~...
voix thats great to hear. yes i was wondering how you were doing. keep it up and you can save up the money!! I had a job too so i was less active on the forum but i lost it yesterday....
Thanks for the suggestion TTU.. I might try it. I think it will distract me from my long term goal of a career so I will try to get on disability and volunteer first... Not dealing too badly with...
Lost the job today. Made an error .. she decided it wasnt a good fit. I guess in one of my good days i was overconfident and didnt check with her before finishing the project. :( Now I may go on...
hey all im doing much better. taking more effexor has helped with the fatigue and pain :) And, i had the talk with my boss and she thinks im a really good employee and she wants me to stay as well as...
Sandy I will check them out as soon as i have the time :) I m doing pretty well tonight. Now lets keep it that way! Take care and thanks so much for ur support~~~...
Wow TTU the cognitive distortions thing is RIght On... *blushes* im guilty of just about all of those. reminds me of the CBT I had for rape therapy ... focusing on trying to change negative thinking...
she wasnt feeling well today so we'll talk tomorrow. my therapist thinks i react too much, like i go from A to Z into crisis mode too quickly. Would that be a med-related issue or something in my...
Things went OK today because my boss was only in for an hour. I barely had to talk to her , i just kept my mouth shut. Tomorow i requested a little time to talk to her about what we discussed. I'll...
Wow thanks for the great info. Im pretty sure I didnt fill out the part about disability or there wasnt one.... She is complaining about my mental capacity. I have the degree to think quickly and...
tortoise, that is great information. Well i am not legally disabled, yet. Meaning I havent applied for disability right? Umm.. i do not think she has to keep me if im unable to do key components of...
i dont know if i need hospital becuase last time i tried to kill myself it was really impulsive and a thought in my head that ordered me to do it. So i just did. I dont know how i could have stopped...
Sorry your having whiplash tortoise. I think i know that feeling too. With the structure of a job and other people around I think it will really help. Try to get some fruit and veg in there dear......
Thanks for the advice. Im up after 4 hrs sleep, i guess thats enough for some people but with fibro i usually need about 8. No luck shutting up those voices of doom and gloom. i will try to relax...
My boss talked to me today about my performance. She is not impressed with my cognitive abilities, mulititasking, follow-through. In truth because of both bipolar and fibromyalgia I think I'm...
thanks wolflover. my day so far is OK . i m just worried about working and volunteering on monday. i keep starting to cry .. and i REALLY never cry so this is weird for me. too emotional. thanks for...
So last night got weird enough that i called a crisis line, and they actually knew what i was talking about! The feeling of unreality / reality being weird.. They told me to call on tuesday and talk...
Thanks for such fast replies. I dont feel so alone anymore. Ive been calling friends to talk to, one friend wiht bipolar and a good friend who's just always good to talk to. ItsGenetic, i have been...
These seem to go along with the mood i'm in.. when i'm hypo or manic of course i'm the sh*t and everything i do is golden, people all like me, blah blah blah.. then wehn im normal its like uh.. i...
stretching.. yoga.. hum cant do inversions bcuz its that time of month so i will pass.....
good for you tortoise!! i walked a good deal this morning and felt great. then i was bored and it was only 9 am. :P lol thats what i get for getting up early>>.. i AM putting off going to the gym...
my goal (and i have been pretty good about this ) is to walk 30-60 minutes per day during the week, and any walking on weekends is a 'bonus". When its 'that time of month' though I give myself a...
looks like i missed all the excitement but mogs want u to know u can still reach out to us even if its not "as bad" as it was before. i will try to remember these tricks to cope wiht my problems...
thanks, today was not as bad as yesterday. the dreams and exhausting sleep are part of the problem i think. and the first day was a little overwhelming. i don't hate it today. i wonder how i'll be...
soo weird... i felt awful depressed and anxious this morning about the job.. went to it, it went fine.. now im home from it and feeling tired from it but depressed again. i m not chatty like usual,...
yes, im talking about cutting and similar things.. i wonder, though, never been diagnosed with OCD doesnt mean i have it but nobodys ever suggested i do either... i think self harm is a distraction...
Im just pondering why I self harm and i wonder how many out there do this as well does it come from self esteem problems when bipolar robs me of my dignity and self worth is it linked to mood swings...
good, thanks for checking in with us again voix~ i'm glad youre doing a little better~~...
voix i am worried about u you seem to be really down lately can u call ur pdoc and get the meds adjusted or even go to the hospital and get it adjusted there?...
okay i feel better now. and i did some research on the side.. its unlikely for effexor and 5htp to get serotonin syndrome. :) w00t... but as for kava.. ??...
Uh.. crap. have taken valerian to try to sleep, it does nothing for me tho so i stopped.... took a large dose of Kava to relax the other day, and have been taking 5HTP for weight regulation... so far...
things are better. much better. maybe the mixed has become a hypomania. i dont know and don't care :) things are just ,freakin, good. ecxept now i'm bored out of my mind wiht no job and nothing to do...
That sounds like me yesterday or the day before... its really weird isnt it that feeling. i think it was something mixed, like the physical energy of mania and the low and antisocial feeling of...
Good, you got an appt. remember that theres always the ER if things go too badly before you get to see the doc! Take care of yourself, be gentle, this is going to improve soon!...
wolflover, thank you.. it sounds like u really know how i feel... yeah, its really a weird feeling and you described it really well. i think its getting better or maybe its gonna come in waves.. its...
Thanks itsgenetic :) im glad you responded ~ ~ Your description of really good music sounds like what music usually does for me. But lately i've been having off days where i feel nothing. then days...
thanks again red. i still dont wanna call the pdoc. wait a couple days see which direction i'm going, first. i am taking my meds as prescribed, last change was about a month ago.. and then again 2...