Hi everyone...(to those of you that remember my story).just another little update. I feel like I am falling into a depression, and it is really scary for me. I know FBF has his own depression he is...
Congratulations Mogs!!!! You should be so proud of yourself. Take some down time to enjoy this great accomplishment. Dutchie...
Thanks so much ladies...your support means so much and really is helpful. It is difficult because I believe I was a selfish person before, and now that is the farthest thing I want to be, and I want...
Hello everyone...it has been quite a while, but some of you have definitely stayed with me in my thoughts. Mogs I am so happy to see you are doing well. Congrats on everything! School for me is going...
Hi Mogs....I have been thinking about you and wondering how things are going for you. I don't get on here much any more because I am busy with school and home life...but I have still been wishing you...
Hello everyone...it has been a while since we've communicated! As you know I have started hairdressing school. I am really enjoying it and so far I am doing very well. Last week was a tough week, A...
LFW...once again thank you for your support. For me...going through all these issues and dealing with things, the most difficult and scary feeling for me is the feelings of lonliness at times. Not a...
First day of school was greeted with much anxiety, followed by one mild panic episode mid-morning....but I distracted myself from it and worked through it. All in all it went really well and I...
Here is part 4... Thanks for your support everyone!...
Olivia...no problem, we will open a part 4 after this post. LFW...thank you for the good wishes. I pray 2008 offers us strength, happiness and growth. Just a quick update to you all. FBF made it to...
Mogs Keep your chin up. I think you and your bf have been through so much....I gather that he is in it for the long haul. No it won't be an easy ride, but keep in mind the devotion to the...
Looking for some reccommended reading on bipolar. Something geared more towrds the everyday and staying on top of anxiety issues, remaining positve about myself. I start school on Jan 7th, and though...
LFW....thank you so much for the kind wishes. We actually had a really nice Christmas together and with the girls. The past couple have been more quiet. That is OK...I just have to practice not...
Mogs...I don't know what else to suggest to you. But I will re-iterate....you are strong...your bf loves you, as well as family and friends. These days will pass. Just keep talking to us and remember...
Thanks LFW I'm not sure I follow what you said when you stated FBF's depression prompting my troubles....I feel FBF's depression was greatly caused by the feelings of disconnect he felt towards me,...
LFW Sorry to hear your story, but it is not a totally unfamiliar one. It sounds like you are the grown up in a room full of children. DON"T STOP BEING THE GROWN UP!! The point is, you would be losing...
Hello everyone. I know it has been a while. I hope everyone is having good days. Mogs how are you doing? I hope well, I know you have a full plate. I just wanted to let you all know that FBF and I...
My update to you all is that I am feeling relativly good. FBF and I have come off a very tough week , at the beginning of lat week. I believe I was probably very close to some kind of breakdown. I...
Good morning everyone. I am here at home. Yesterday was one of the worst days I could possibly imagine to experience, and turned out to be one I will be most grateful for. I spent my day packing...
Hello everyone Sad news. FBF is not healing from this the way he needs. He feels some time apart will help us discover who we are and what we want. I have explained that I am growing in the person I...
Iscarabaid Welcome to HW. It sounds like you are dealing with some very difficult issues. Number one...the only way you will be able to help your husband the best way possible is to keep on top of...
Serefena Thanks for the thoughts and the book title. Our councellor teaches this cognitive behaviour therapy as well. This therapy has a sneaky, subtle way of making you see errors in thinking and in...
Mogs I'm not sure how helpful I will be, because my experience with different meds is limited to the lithium. For me, lithium made a world of differnce in stabalizing my thought patterns. The racing...
Gaz I was unaware that having racing thoughts was abnormal. I became so accustomed to them, that I never thought for a minute that anything could possibly be wrong. For me there was never one clear...
LFW and Mogs ....thanks for the helpful tips and insight. Mogs I hope you arer doing better this week. As I have discussed before, I have these consuming feelings of sadness and shame. I feel like...
Mogs...just wondering how you are doing? Have you seen your doc yet? Let us know. We are thinking of you. Dutchie...
Good evening everyone. Mogs...Are you are on clonazapam as a sleep aid? As you have probably read, my doc prescribed this med to me for anxiety. However the anxiety I experience is not an everyday...
Mogs I am sad to hear you are struggling. If taking some time off school is not an option then you need to take full advantage of the resources that you do have. You are not alone!!...You have your...
Nicola You are right there is a lot of shame in looking at yourself like that. I did it with people I worked with. Not the fantasizing, but rather just obsessing about getting the attention. It was...
I am just wondering what info any one can give on the drug clonazepam. I went to my family doc today and explained to him the feelings of anxiety that come over me at times. Some of this stuff is...
Serefena Thanks for the encouraging words. The swan picture IS very sweet and the story that goes along with it is even sweeter, but forgive me for not sharing...although I shared it with my mom, it...
Mogs...sorry to hear you were struggling again. I'm glad you have the chance to spend some comfort time with your mom. Enjoy it and be open to the natural medicine it will provide. I just went out...
Good morning everyone. I just wanted to add a little post note to this week's correspondence. You should know that FBF does not feel attacked by anyone...he realizes that yes these are all just...
Ladies..thank you for your posts and your support. Please understand that I am not looking for an easy way out. Would it be nice to live without the pain...yes of course. But I do look on what I may...
Thank you everyone for the weight loss encouragement. I'm at seventy lbs. now ( since about Jan/Feb 07) My secret is simply healthy eating and exercising 1/2 hr. a day. I have a gazelle machine (sort...
Mogs Take this hour by hour...you can do it. Like Serafena said....take some of the stressors out. Your exam....don't worry about it. Even without going into too much detail with your professor, I...
Mogs....this is just a little hello to you. We are wondering how you are doing.?? You continue to be in our thoughts...we are wishing you well. Thanks LFW/Olivia and Dasa for your encouragement....
LFW and Dasa Thank you for your continued supportive words. I think that is where FBF is struggling righ now..is with the moving on. Hwe wants to feel some type of closure. We have been trowing...
LFW & Dasa....thank you both so much for your responses. I just wanted to write this to maybe help explain a little bit of what FBF is maybe going through. I think as far as questioning things over...
Mogs...Congratulations!!!!WOW talk about proving yourself!Good for you. make sure you do not forget this accomplishment if and when you have some down days again. Footballfan and I continue to wish...
Mogs Sorry to hear you are feeling low. Footballfan and I are thinking of you often. I know it is very difficult when you are low to see anything positive. But from your posting I see (and I'm sure...
Mogs...so good to hear from you. I'm glad school is going well....pace yourself through the crazy schedules. Footballfan and I continue our journey. Some days it is very difficult. He has times when...
Mogs I just wanted you to know that Footballfan and I have been thinking about you. We hope school is going well and that you are dealing with all the day to day stuff without too much stress. How...
Soundguy I also welcome you to this site...like Footballfan said there are alot of great people here that will offer up some great advice and support. As unpleasant as it is at times to be one the...
Everyday I am falling more and more in love with Footballfan again. I never realized what a wall I had built up against him. I see and hear the pain and lonliness he must have felt for years and it...
Olivia and LFW: Thanks for your responses. I was clear on the fact that Footballfan thought what I was doing was odd (coming to another town to go for a walk and read) However, if I had of realized...
Mogs.....I have to give credit to the word "inspiration" to Footballfan. He used it in a few postings ago in reference to me. Apparently I have done this before where I will use a word that he has...
Hi Mogs....do you realize what a inspiration you are when you leave postings on HW? I am always so impressed with the advice and caring you give. I just read your reply to Zomese....I'm sure your...
I hope everyone who reads these postings is understanding the blessings I have come to realize in this husband of mine. He says I make him proud, but I don't think he understands the degree of pride...
LFW I am so glad you and your family were able to get away. I think family trips even though they are not meant to be can be a stressful thing on there own (packing,getting to your destination,...