Thanks for your compliment karen:) Hope your day went well. Sorry I didn't get back sooner Tennis, I had to work all day and just got home. I can understand what you are saying about your counselor....
Tennis You dont trust people because of what you have been through. I am the same way, It takes me a long time to trust people. I have had many relationships but as soon as they get close I push them...
Tennis, Cry all you want, I wish I could at this point my tears wont fall. I usually only get 5-6 hours of sleep a night. So my therapist tells me I really need to be getting more sleep. Its not like...
Hi Charity, Not sure, you may have heard about this already. But I have a friend who gets hives all over her body more so when she goes through periods of being very nervous. Her's are what they call...
Tennis, Sorry you feel so down but that is to be expected after what you have been through. I hope you are able to see your counselor on monday. I really think you should, even if you only talk about...
I though I was all done with my attacks, it had been years since I had one. But just recently I began attending counseling to deal with childhood sexual abuse that I had kept to myself. Anyways, I am...
Thank you Karen, I also appreciate your continued support. I know there will be days when I need it more than ever. Glad to have found this board. Pressing...
Sorry you are going through so much. As the others had mentioned, if there is any possibility to you talking to a counselor or doctor, I really think you should. Most communities offer free...
Awe Meg, I am sorry your having such a hard day. I kind of felt like that yesterday. I wish I could just come and hang out with you for a bit and cheer you up:) Another story... Lets see...here is a...
Boxcastle Sorry about what you are going through, I can only imagine the stress of it. Is there a possibility of you seeing a different therapist? I really think you should try to talk to someone...
Tennis, I am so proud of you. I remember the first time I wrote a letter to one of my teachers about something scary I was scared to death to see her again the next day. Sweating, shaking etc...know...
Thanks march...I think of it in a sense of not letting it have full control of my life, that this is something I can defeat Croi, I'm with you...at least she is on her way...talking about it makes a...
Ok...ok...no detention for you....we'll forgive you this time... Just kidding, I know how much it helps me when people share there experience...it gives hope...and we "all" need that. Pressing...
Thanks Shynsassy, I know it may spark things for you and I certainly don't mean to do that. I just think alot of times when people have depression anxiety etc....there is a deeper fear within...
Tennis Thank you for sharing, I know its hard but sometimes it just feels good to get it out. I must say it is much easier to do it on a forum like this. What I shared with you is something that I...
Thanks Meg, I may advetually give into the group suggestion, but I think I have to get a little better at letting things out first. Or I'd be sitting there without saying a word:) My counselor is...
Your welcome Wen, You've been a great support to me too:) Just hang in there. Luv to you too Pressing...
Hi Tennis I too don't cry infront of people. That is why its so hard to get it out in my counseling sessions. Sometimes I start to a little when the subject is painful, then I just shut down. Can't...
Congrats on your alcohol victory Lyn. Thats a huge step to take. I'm sure it was not easy. Your a strong women:) Pressing...
Tennis I totally understand. I am still not totally trusting of my counselor, she knows its not her. One of my abusers was so good at treating me really wonderful before he ended up hurting me, so in...
Went to my counselor again today. I did end up telling her what happened with my mom. She told me that she was sorry and that my mom is not ready to accept this issue at this point in time. She also...
My first attack was at 13 years of age. I was standing in school for an awards cerimony and started to get anxious, I ended up getting pains in my stomache and not too long after that I woke up in...
Thats so cool Wen, you got it, just continue to take it "little by little" and you find out you can do alot more than you think. Its just building that confidence so to speak. Growing up I was the...
So "stinks" would have done the trick... right...lol Pressing...
Nelah I am so gald that you had this long needed talk with him. I truly hope that he will follow through with what he has said, for all of your sakes. I would definately stick to your guns with this....
Meg your too sweet. If I had a jet I just might have taken you up on that offer :) Your words have been great. Thank you for your continued support. I see my counselor again tomorrow and with that of...
I can empathize with so many of you here. I posted some of this on another thread but thought it would be helpful to have it here. When I was 13 I went through and extreme bout of anxiety. I can't...
I found this site the other day and thought since it was just Easter it would be nice to share. It is about a 4 1/2 minute video with music along with it. There is a crucifixion scene that may be a...
So funny, I had kind off snapped on someone in church the other day for the first time. This is a women who is pretty emotional at that, she came up to me and said you look so refreshed and vibrant....
Thank you for your support. I had no idea how talking about these things were going to affect me I have to keep telling myself its going to get better. As of now things have only gotten worse or...
Thanks for your kind words. I am just starting to come to terms with the fact that she is probably never going to be the nurturing mom I would have loved her to be. I have decided today that I am...
Its Easter, and I was so very happy to get together with my family. Mostly to see all my neices and nephews, I have 14 of them. I love to see them all together having such a good time, they all get...
Sorry you had to edit Darren. I will do my best to try to keep it appropriate:) Pressing...
Enjoy your little ones too:) Hoping the grades do improve. Thank God I am on spring break this week , its so nice, but I do have 2 papers due soon, one which is a 5 page paper, so I will be working...
Thanks Nervymeg, I have no idea what I am getting into. Its crazy, when I leave the session, It takes a few days till I get back to normal so to speak. Then I have another appointment, the nerves...
Thanks Karen, I sure hope so. I am leaning on close bounds right now in one of my classes, thats extremely frustrating for me since I have a 4.0. The reality is after this semester that GPA is in the...
Hi anxious soul, When I went through my extreme bout of anxiety when I was younger. I would get flutters like you explained, I could feel them so strongly all the way up in my throat. I would just...
I am feeling a little better today thanks, yesterday was a really rough day. I have no idea why. Maybe my depression was kicking in strong, I decided not to take meds because I am a fulltime nursing...
Yes, I suppose thats it, so many unanswered questions, with such an array of strange emotions. I just need to learn to feel them and let them come as they may, but also have to keep them somewhat in...
This is all new to me. I have been seeing my counselor for about a month and a half now and I finally got to the point of sharing with her something I had journaled, at her suggestion, since I was...
Yes it somewhat feels good but is kind of disturbing too. I never really sat and thought about all these things that have been bothering me. They can become overwhelming. Sometimes I think, whats the...
Behind these eyes, I'm sorry you have to worry about that with what you already have to deal with....its always something right... Not sure if you tried this, but secret has a new deodorant that is...
Thanks Karen, I do just want to get it all out and deal with it. I don't want to be dealing with this for a long time. It puts a damper on my life, not that living with the secret didn't. I know it...
I have been going to a counselor for the first time in my life to deal with childhood sexual abuse. I can remember everything up to the point where it was actually happening, then its as if I blacked...
When my counselor told me that I was good at dissociating, I think I was at that point drifting off, though I heard what she said and it brought me back so to speak. I still don't realize I am doing...
I am just starting to see all the stuff I went through growing up. I guess I just mentally blocked it all out or lived in denial. I pretty much put on the strong fasad for so long, now that I am in...
Hi Karen I do daydream some. It weird I can sit through a whole class and listen to every thing the professor says fine. Then I get in the car and my mind wanders all over, and of course in the...
One of my problems is not letting things bother me; not really dealing with the emotions at all, just letting things slide, like I had to do my whole life. As a child we did not cry infront of each...
I actually learned that we do dream 4-5 times a night:) However, I don't usually remember my dreams because I sleep right through them. I am usually pretty beat from the day and am lucky to 5 hours...
Thanks Roni, I just thought it was interesting and may reveal to people that they are not the only ones who feel the way they do. Sometimes we have a hard time expressing how we feel, especially if...