I was going to post earlier today, but something told me not to. I had an alright day alone until 6:30pm. Spent the day just watching tv and playing video games like normal, just bored and wasting...
Today was an incredibly difficult day for me. At first, it was just hard like normal because I was getting hit with random memories of my ex from college and our first dates. I kinda shrugged them...
The last few days have been even more confusing for me. I've kept going to kickboxing and I've been working, but my mood is slipping even farther. I was having a deep conversation with my friend...
Yesterday I experienced a brand new emotion. I was thinking about my past and how worthless I feel... and I found my "self" wrestling with myself. Almost as if my "self" was trying to show me that I...
Figured I'd give this a whirl. My name is Staveandor, or you can call me Stave, or Allen. I'm 21 years old, and I'm a huge nerd. I came to Healingwell when my ex broke up with me a little over 3...
Today was the slightest bit better than the last 2 days have been. I was actually able to forget about my ex for a few hours today, and use something that she left behind that I haven't been able to...
Yesterday was also a pretty bad day. I spent the day reflecting on the past, and looking into the very near future, where my choices are quite limited. I will have to move in a few months, and I...
Today has been a horrible day so far, and it's only 6pm. I've been really depressed all day. I can't get her off my mind. I've tried everything I normally do and nothing works. I'm even so sad today...
Today was a nothing day, really, but I had a very peculiar feeling - almost like I could sense that I've been on her mind for a while now. I used to love this feeling, because I was always right....
Today was a decent enough day. Work was busy and irritating as usual, but I made it through it. I had a reminiscent feeling of a memory of my ex from our 2 month anniversary, while I was at work...
Getting by - I know that fate is well beyond my means of perception, and I have no idea what my life has in store for me. Calling her will not help anything at all; it would only drag up old feelings...
I'm going though a whirlwind right now, just need to vent. I can't get my ex out of my head. She's heading to this side of town for work in an hour (if she still has her job) and I have the impulse...
After taking a day to calm down as much as I feel like I can, I've come to one conclusion: I'm letting her win . I haven't had my ex in my life for 3 months, and I haven't seen her in almost a month....
I don't think even a professional could help me right now. The only thing that can is some unexpected measure of positivity to come into my life somehow. Be it a promotion (which I've been trying...
So I just got home from the pool hall, hanging out with friends. I realized that I am completely unhappy about every aspect of my life. All of my friends were on edge around me, and didn't want to...
getting by - The reason I feel like "Being confident and on a quest for sex" is how I'm supposed to feel is because how everyone in my life, but me, defines it. My dad literally tells me I'm an...
I've been thinking about my lot in life for the same past few weeks, and I really feel like I'm not supposed to be here. There is almost nothing positive going for me right now. I work, but I hate my...
Thank you all for replying. I've just been doing what I can do "just be" for the last few weeks, and everything I do seems like a grand failure. I even got in a fight with my friend last night over...
The last time I posted on these boards, my ex and I had just broken up. I was going through a really, really rough patch because the rest of my life just walked out the door. Now, it's been about 3...
Thank you all again for your support. I took the posts and held your words close to my heart last night as I celebrated my "coming of age". Today, I woke up and felt another level of sadness. Since...
Thank you for all of your support everyone. I've been doing things daily to raise my own confidence, and I've been trying to broaden my horizons on life as well. Since I last posted, I started...
This is going to be a fairly long post, please bear with me. There's a lot to get off of my chest. I'm a 20 year old male. I was in a relationship for over two-and-a-half years with my ex... the...