the er and being hospitalized doesn't help...
they can't understand me on the phone, and the suicide hotline gets routed to the same crisis hotline...
it's getting worse, i came home from work because management was once again harrassing me about what i'm wearing even though it's completely appropriate and professional. then i get home and read an...
i've been on i think 7 different mood stabilizers and reacted badly to all of them, lithium was the worst. music doesn't help anymore. right now i'm angry at my mom for abandoning me but i barely...
the zoloft is numbing the depression but it's numbing my other feelings too. i've lost what little motivation i had to live....
is ect the electro something therapy? i tried that once and all it did was make me feel stupid for a few hours. i had a sunshine lamp for a while but i don't think it helped and now it's missing. i...
i tried abilify for two weeks and all it did was make me severely dehydrated. i've been getting steadily worse for the past 4 hours....
started getting depressed a little before that last post about an hour ago and it still hasn't lifted...
i've tried so many other meds and reacted much worse to them, i'm afraid to try anything else...
i've opened up to my therapist a lot i think that's why it's so painful i think the anti depressant i'm on is making me numb, it dulls the depression but now i'm also not interested in trying anymore...
i'm now going to individual and group counselling once a week each. the one on one is really intense. seems like when i go i get so upset that it takes me a few days to start feeling better then i...
tired and thinking there's no point to life...
i went to dbt group today and i was miserable while i was there. i don't feel like i learned anything and i spent the whole time thinking about bad things that have happened to me....
got plenty of sleep and still tired...
yeah every single day at work i think atleast once that i'm not gonna make it through the day, but i almost always do and i don't even know how. atleast it's getting less miserable while i'm there....
i spend half of my time at work sorting mail and the other half delivering. i'm taking dialectic behavior therapy to help with my thoughts. i went to volleyball tonight even though i was already...
i work for the post office and there's never any downtime. i've been looking for another job but anything better i'm not qualified for and i can't handle going back to school. i'm really depressed...
my job just doesn't take up enough brain space...
i was at work so i couldn't do anything like that...
thanks karen the first two hours of work today were horrible, after that it was just a long day. now i'm trying to put off the depression that's trying to come back...
gonna try to fall asleep now, if i can't then i'll probably cry some more...
yeah ever since i went back on zoloft i almost never cry and i think i need to a lot i feel worse when i need to cry but can't...
well thinking about my mom definitely makes me cry...
i posted earlier today but it's not showing. i feel like crying for no reason but i can't...
i feel like crap today. not able to enjoy anything Edit: I gave your post a title....
went to dbt today. i've felt like crying every day but couldn't, was finally able to at counselling....
took about an hour for me to go from being fine to severely depressed. time to cry myself to sleep...
it's not helping yet cause we've had to spend the first two sessions doing paperwork. i'm using facebook but i keep seeing my mom's pic on there which makes me extremely depressed because she's still...
right now i'm on zoloft (an anti depressant) and hydroxyzine (an antihystemine that also helps with anxiety). i'm seeing a dbt counsellor once a week and soon i should be put in a group dbt....
got to sleep in for the second day in a row but i'm still tired...
still pretty stressed today even though i didn't work. i did some errands and that helped a bit but i still have some stuff to do that will have to wait until tomorrow cause i just burned out on...
i usually do this pretty well just at work and a few other places my mind goes to bad places. i've got today off and i'm enjoying it a bit but i feel anxious, gonna take some hydroxyzine to see if it...
i've tried all those things for the tricotillamania. i've just started seeing a new counselor who does dialectic behavior therapy. when i go on walks my mind usually wanders to bad places....
still don't wanna go anywhere today yeah i have tricotillamania. i compulsively pull out my hair. my hair used to be very long but i end up cutting it to try to disguise how uneven it is from pulling...
i got a bug bite or something near my temple a few days ago and since then i've been pulling out all the hair around it. now i have a new bald spot...
it was supposed to reach 95 degrees today. makes me not want to go to yoga...
i missed a family reunion cause i was in the hospital and i'm still really upset about it...
i got called into work today, the first half i was really upset, then i cried, then i felt better. that's an interesting theory about feeling better at night...
ug now that i should be going to bed i'm finally feeling better...
that's an interesting theory, i'm gonna take my anti anxiety meds and see if my nausea goes away...
i was getting ready to go to group and i got dizzy, so i stayed home. feeling very sick...
i've been trying to write in my journal but there's nothing to write about. i feel sick physically and mentally. there's a group starting in 10 minutes but when i went last week it made me feel worse...
very depressed today...
i seem like i'm doing better? the zoloft must be helping. i'm so relieved that i'm not working tomorrow...
that might work if i had a nice thought...
2 days off wasn't enough, i'm so tired and i don't want to work tomorrow...
i hope the zoloft starts easing my depression soon. i need a break...
the appointment was mostly paperwork but we realized that i already have a few skills that i've been using so now i can try to use them more...
my appointment is in 3 hours...
i had a dream last night that my mom tried to drown herself...