having trouble not reaching out to Kevin. Feeling very stupid, tired, needy. I do have a great hubby. both of us are at our wit’s end with the baby’s problems. and I feel extra guilty because she’s...
also, @getting by - when you said "So maybe you and your husband want to swing??? You said he wants to be kinky. It sounds like the other guy though doesn't want to. Do I have this right? But you...
tl;dr thank you, for listening. i re-read many posts from my past. logically i know i will not sleep with the other man again. he is a tie to my prior life, and it does feel good just to hang out...
I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to snap before. All of this is fantasy. Which is why it feels weird to have him shut it down. This has happened in the past, and unfortunately fits a pattern (that roller...
feel free to be as mean and nasty as you want to me, but it hurts my feelings when people assume erroneous things or question what i know about my daughter. yes, she was initially hospitalized for...
I refuse to be that person who gets a divorce after only two years of marriage. I already feel like a piece of trash. I would have no money and nowhere to go if we got divorced which makes me feel...
alice, someone above replied that this is unfair. i cannot imagine the pain you must be feeling. everything about the last few months has made no sense. my condolences for your great loss. i'm so...
today i am angry at myself for not having learned from my past. i am married (happily?). my husband and i have a daughter who just turned a year old. she gets 99.9% of her nutrition through a feeding...
Can’t manage to write much. Sunday depression is the worst for some reason. Feel like an idiot thinking about missing my husband even though he’s only at work. Anyway, just wanted to send so many...
Karen, Thank you for your kind words. You make so many excellent points. Today is a better day, after I got a bit more sleep and ate some better food. I am trying to take care of myself, but it is...
finding it very difficult to get access to mental health resources (on the west coast of the US). endeavors made more frustrating by the fact that i am in my third trimester of pregnancy. before...
thank you everyone for your supportive words. i will be added to my fiancé's medical insurance soon, and will schedule a doctor's appointment to make sure that this isn't zebras. my weight is still a...
Hi. The end of the year is always stressful; my anxiety is compounded by several big life changes. I'm getting married in July, and beginning to send out save the date cards. I realized most of them...
it just feels so pointless sometimes. if i am hurting so badly, and clearly have been for such a long time - how do i know it gets better? i've tried to tell myself that it will. i've watched dan...
thanks, F27. you're right. i do need to stop selling myself short. it's just that this *is* such a crap disease!!! it's not fair. wish i could see more light at the end of the tunnel!!! don't want to...
i've been posting here for eleven years, and i'm still depressed. feeling really low. just returned from a vacation visiting my parents (3,000 miles away). i'm 30 years old. i should not be thinking...
sorry for your loss. never easy to lose a loved one. you seem to have a healthy outlook and a nice plan for a celebration of her life. i wish you the best in your healing....
thanks, everyone. i have another interview today. i just feel like i can't take one more rejection email! still depressed. crying all the time....
I am feeling particularly low today. I am anxious and depressed - which is never a good combo. I heard back from a job I really wanted; they offered the job to someone else. I asked for constructive...
Even objectively the interview was just awkward. It didn't feel like a great fit, it wasn't at all what they had advertised it as, and I could just hear answers coming out of my mouth wrong. Like...
I went to the interview. Felt very distracted the whole time, and was very aware that I was bombing. I went to a public restroom after, and cried in a stall for about twenty minutes. Then I rode...
sunday afternoon blues. i thought i was doing ok - but i started going from ok ---> not ok very quickly. i feel extremely guilty. i called my parents just now, who have done so much for me already,...
thanks pitmom. even just reading your post i got a really comforting visual of what my table would look like with nice plates and a candle. :) great suggestions, and worth a try. i am in a better...
I have seen many psychiatrists. I tried DBT. I got ECT in 2012. I've tried every drug under the sun, but am only on methylphenidate at the moment. I don't have health insurance, and can't afford a...
Sorry yes, didn't mean to downplay the importance of seeking professional help as well. Hope today is OK... say hi to kitty for us :)...
two years ago, i went to the animal shelter to look at the cute kittens - and ended up (very impulsively!) adopting one. i know it's silly, but Rory (full name Aurora Borealis) has been a distraction...
still no word from jobs. no contact with friends. spent whole day in a dark depressing room crying. which, when i write it out sounds terrifying. ate crummy food. cried a lot more. gave myself a...
thanks, all. tim tam - sorry about your fireworks experience. i wish people could be more sensitive to your dislikes and fears, and i hope that they didn't set them off just to make you angry or...
thanks, all. it's not even really about the guy. i just feel so awful. i am looking for a job in any field really; i work as a secretary. i have been texting my parents, but i think they're avoiding...
I know it's dangerous. And 'crutch' is the perfect word. It was so weird to be so happy yesterday and then to fall back into being so sad today. He is still married. To his credit, he made a point of...
I am doing poorly. I moved back to a city 2,500 miles away from most of my family, because I was starting to feel like a burden. I don't have a job, and the friends I've tried to contact here won't...
ua, and everyone reading this: thank you. your kind words mean more than you know. today is worse than yesterday. with the exception of going to the bathroom (two feet from my bedroom door), i have...
i am feeling hopeless and helpless. i've been working temporary jobs since moving to a new city this past winter. it's been a good way to stay employed, without letting people find out how crazy...
As a Smith College alumna, I never thought I would find myself in a financially abusive relationship. Watching numerous stories in the news recently about various types of abuse, I finally admitted...
thank you, everyone. i don't drink to excess - it's just the impulse to suddenly start having a glass of wine or a bit of vodka/cranberry. nothing extreme - but worrisome nonetheless. i'm taking meds...
Hi, I have been away for awhile, but want to start posting again. A little about me: - 27 y/o female - Unemployed (yet again!) - Co-habitating with a boy - Underwent ECT in 2012 - Live ~3,000 miles...
Mostly I feel embarrassed that my psychiatrist has dumped me. I saw him for a year or so before he recommended I get ECT about a year and a half ago. I moved away for nine months, but began seeing...
I added the icon that looks like a newspaper, because this post is going to be long, boring and detailed. I feel like I never really introduced myself on here. I'm the kind of person who's more...
thanks, jb1. i think the more cynical i get, the more i alienate myself from everyone, even on here. i am scared that i come across as whiny and obnoxious. i have reached out to two different temp...
Having a really bad day today. Feeling more hopeless and helpless about being unemployed. I've had several interviews, but no job offers. I have only gotten follow-up communication from one job - a...
Sounds like you're dealing with some pretty powerful feelings. It's way easier said than done, but I agree with Karen. Focus on school stuff. If nothing else, it'll hopefully distract you a little...
I am inspired by your spirit. You could have chosen lots of different ways to write this post, but I think it speaks volumes that you said you "made it through ten rounds of chemo". I read that and...
I just read on Thought Catalog that having a jobs means being able to say: "I fit somewhere in this enormous spectrum, I have been deemed capable of contributing something concrete to my community...
I can't help not feeling depressed about being unemployed. I've had interviews, and been proactive about finding openings, but I haven't had any job offers since I moved about six weeks ago. It's...
Had lots of caffeine with my Ritalin, and thinking maybe that's why I feel like this. I feel really anxious, and have been crying for the last couple of hours. I feel like I can't turn to anybody. I...
hi. sorry for bringing this post back to the front page. i'm always weak on sundays. :( i'm still homesick. my roommate claire* and i found an apartment today. we put down some money, and barring any...
Writing from my phone, as have no Internet. Against medical advice, moved 2,500 miles away from parents. Have family here, but not many friends. An acquaintance is arriving tomorrow, and we will...
just saw "side effects", which i'm sure isn't helping things, but - having a meltdown. spent the day shopping with my mother, which surprisingly did not end in an argument or anything and was...
Thanks for the advice. I'm making a pro/con list. I'm still conflicted......
Hi. I'm wondering if making impulsive, poor decisions is a symptom of depression. A short timeline to explain my situation: February 2011: Moved to the pacific northwest on a whim. Lived with an...