I also have been a chronic pain sufferer. I switched pain doctors about 6 months ago and they started me on the patch. they worked great until I had a strong episode. The doctor only gave me more of...
I have had the stimulator put in last nov and your story is almost exactly like mine. However, I went back after it all settled in and they reset that stimulator or had it adjusted and they reset it...
I am also new to this and remember feeling the way that you do. However, i did remember that someone died for me and I am worth it. I am worthy and so are you. I also think you should get on the meds...