S2BS, wow. Remember that, in caring for your parent, you are doing something none of those 'women' could even conceive. Yup - they're completely insecure with themselves and know you're a far better...
Trina, thanks. It still amazes me just how wonderful you all are here. I only seem to drop by when I'm in some crisis but your hearts are always welcoming. I'm not sure what I'd do without you all. I...
HT, I love that post. Yer a magician with hammer and nail. These are things I too have discovered once I stopped my BP meds. I found my mind stifled by the meds but even the resultant mania has been...
HT, thanks Brother. "Only the damaged are truly evolved". We have a strength others can't imagine and never see. Right now, that's a problem - I've returned to wearing the masks others expect of me...
Thanks Folks.... My 'retirement home' is still just a hunt camp at this point and is 8 hrs north of where I work. The plan is to build over the next yrs....so ya...I have to find a place here....
Thanks Folks....I know this will pass. It's just a little overwhelming right now....Karen, that's my dilemma - finding something I can afford that's appropriate. Hey, I always say things always work...
Hi, I haven't been on here in quite some time but find myself needing to vent. I'm Bipolar with Major Depression and stopped my bipolar meds over a year ago. I've been at this a long time and know...
Thank you All very much. I have been thru a couple of 12 step programs myself so have many tools and experience to draw on. I know I am too hard on myself sometimes but when it's yer kid at issue,...
Karen, thanks. Things are better. I've been trying so hard to stay on an even keel for my Son that I hadn't allowed myself to feel and acknowledge my low swing. Being Bipolar, I see it when it starts...
Absolutely get back to school. I quit at 16 - similarly a rough parent situation - and took it upon myself to get back at 18. Yeah, I was older than anyone else too but I had taken control of my own...
Thanks Karen and HT. I like the idea of metal....listened to Bobaflex today.....it does help. And yeah...stuff the spartan shite. Half way thru today's shift and alone all day is helping. Work is a...
Thanks Brother, I needed someone to answer. I'm takin him to AA next week. I've been thru this fekkin ringer before - just hate it. I gotta feelin a lot of this is has been buildin up and I'm just...
I haven't been here in a very long time but need to talk to someone....anyone....I am bipolar and suffer major depression. Stopped bipolar meds 2+ yrs ago but still on anti-D's. Last 2 days have been...
Hello, I was diagnosed in about 2004 (at the age of 44) with Fibro by a Neurologist and my GP. I had 14 symptoms attributed to Fibro. I was on several different pain meds over the years, the worst...
Tim, I should have clarified - I was diagnosed in '96 with Major Depression and Bipolar Disorder. I've been on and off this site over the years and mostly to vent, although I have had many rough...
I'm at work and just had this overwhelming feeling of sadness wash over me. I feel like if I have one more tiny thought of something sad I'll just break down completely. I have an incredible urge to...
UA, thanks. I'm sure things will improve - get easier - if I just stay cognizant of how I really feel. I started yesterday by acknowledging my grief and welcoming it. Today's a bit better and I know...
BFE, thanks. Yeah...that mask can get comfortable. I'm also dealing with a Son who has Anxiety disorder and is in trouble with alcohol. Sometimes it seems like I'll never smile again but I do try to...
I haven't been on here in quite some time....for some history, I lost my Sister in 2013, a Brother in 2014 and my Dad in 2015. The first two, to cancer and my Dad...he'd had enough. I just realised...
Yardley, all advice given to you is on the money. All I can add is an understanding of why he does this and let you know none of it is because of you. I've suffered with Depression for over 40 years...
Thank you all for posting. I will definitely request the blood work suggested and, believe me, I am going to let her know precisely how I feel about her having left me 'high & dry'. Today is the...
Karen, thanks for sharing your experience with me. I knew I wasn't the only one but when I searched here for a similar case and found none, I felt I had to share this. It just seemed the information...
Hello, I haven't been on here in a long time and usually post in Fibro and Depression forums but, having done a search, found more posts about Butrans here. I was taking 10-30 mg of Percocet a day...
Vickymhashley, Wow. I've been going through some pretty rough stuff recently and thought I'd return to friends who care for some venting and what do I find but you and your post. Welcome! I'm a 55 yr...
Hi Karen, after work tomorrow morning I'll be getting my meds. I know I shouldn't have let this happen but work just got in the way. I've only been at work for a couple of hours and it's already...
Rob, Thanks - it's all about perspective, isn't it? I know a lot of what's happening right now has to do with just too many hours at work lately. My job is to monitor and troubleshoot the...
JB1, thanks for responding. I do know why I'm feeling this way....everything just seems to be piling up right now and I'm on my first big bipolar downswing in a long time - I guess that's almost good...
checking in for the first time in a long while. SAD has set in. Work has been nuts with a number of staff reductions resulting in my having to work over time - I work 12 hr shifts and this month had...
Hello, My name is Brian and I'm 53. I've been a member here for some time and normally post in the depression forum but realise I may be better off here. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and...
Karen, Thanks! It is surprisingly easy to reflect positively on my sister right now as she was a highly intelligent, well-educated, energetic, courageous and outgoing individual - traits I see in my...
Hi Mywowgirl, I just want to relate an experience I had with Lithium. I was diagnosed with Major Depression and Bipolar Disorder back in '95 and was initially given Prozac. I was in a horrible state...
ROFL! I thought ghost bugs were only for me! I also get the wet feeling spots and go mad trying to fall asleep when the "bugs" and my RLS play a concert under the bed covers! I'm not squeamish about...
Hello, I haven't been here in a bit and have been having a hard time as I lost my sister a year ago tomorrow and her birthday was just 12 days ago. But, true to character, life has continued and...
thanks. I've been through many years of recovery and therapy. I have the tools I need to get thru this. I just feel so alone. My sister was the one constant in a life of crisis and turmoil and now I...
thank you all. 'm just at ravaged. I need to curl up in someone elses arms. s hard being a man of 53 an admiit that. As someone once said - and I turned away love when I needed it most.....it's the...
i dont want to cry anymore....
I think its taken me a year to be able to fully mourn her passing. I just wish I had someone here. I...
Seem like many are feeling the Feb blahs, cranked way up. I know I am. My b'day yesterday. Went out to dinner with 2 of my kids and their Mother last night. Been working too much - 84 hrs last week -...
Karen, no worries about editing. Thanks for your time and thoughts - that's what I come here for, the people and their empathy. My daughter's home with me now so I'm feeling much better. She just...
Karen & Trina, Thanks so much for writing back. I'm withdrawing from Percocet. On bad days - bad Fibro flares - I take up to 5 or 6 325 mg tabs, quite a lot. Last week I was taking no fewer than...
I'm on my 2nd day withdrawing from my Fibro pain meds. I worked 90 stressful hours in 5 days last week and I was in flare from day one. I work on mainframe computer and network systems and every 3-4...
Happy New Year Everyone. I'm at home too. Nobody around, nothing to do and nowhere to go. I hope it snows - looks like it might - I'll go for a long midnight walk. I hate being so alone. Brian...
Hi, well it was a green Christmas here. I worked Mon and Tues but had to take a mental health day on Wed. I received no cards or even calls. I've spent the last couple of days doing nothing. I have...
Merry Christmas and all the best for the New Year to all my friends and acquaintances here! Hey MDJ, I have been exactly where you are and was fortunate to experience the same kind of caring by...
Hey Gigi, I can SOOO relate to this thread, particularly about this seeming like the loneliest illness in the world - at least one of my brothers thinks it's all in my head - if only it were! So,...
Good morning all, Cold and crisp this morning - at the bus stop at 6 am! Sunny, sunny, sunny here now. This time of year is always rough but I'm already sliding downward as it will be the first...
Good Evening, This is my morning - working nights this week - so it's also my check in. So cool to hear you folks have foxes so close and friendly - just be careful! They can catch and carry rabies...
I'm prescribed up to 4 percocet per day for Fibro but only really need that much in bad weather and/or when I'm working more than 2 days - I work 12 hr shifts sitting at a computer. I do a stretch of...
Good luck Trina! If we need to 'fake it till we make it' that's perfectly ok - at least it puts us on the right road and helps keep us out of the same old potholes. Brian...
vrolik, Nepotism and the 'old boy' network protect people like that. I've seen people hired here into positions that don't even really exist - there is no work for them but they get hired by...