Thank you Pitmom, you understand what I was bringing up. I too find some ways to combat my feeling of loss every day, but I was wondering about the feeling that still keeps surfacing, no matter how...
Not an answer to what I was asking....
I was curious as to how others felt about the chronic interference inflicted on their lives, and while I think I know what some of you are saying about taking one day at a time, I'm asking more about...
Hello, For those of you who have been chronically ill, whether like me since birth or simply for a very, very long time, I have a question. Do you feel it has interrupted and invaded everything in...
I've tried them before, and got the usual acceptance speech that people seem so fond of. I'm not considering suicide again yet, but if I do reach that point, I will try them again. Can you give me...
You may want to try and seek talk therapy, to try and find a source for the depression. Drugs can have a nasty variety of side-effects, and some may even be messing up your brain more than helping....
It could possibly be chronic fatigue syndrome, but I am not an expert on that. I know this sucks, and it's near impossible to put up a fight when you don't even know what's happening....
That's the problem - it is not all in the past. This team continues to be oblivious to the psychological effects of what their patients are put through, while believing they have great support for...
You're doing it again. Closing off the topic that some people need to have a conversation about. I have said nothing about any methods, or asking anyone to help me. I'm just trying to express how...
And why is no-one calling them out on alienating me for my entire youth? I have accepted there are plenty of things I could have done better, but you seem to only be calling me out on my...
I know. It's awful to be slowed down and feeling like crap, and it's devastating to feel like you are a burden. You're right, that when you look well, other people believe you're getting better. A...
If they were trying to see me as a person, then once again, they should have considered the psychological erosion that all of those procedures (as well as, what I didn't mention at first, being in a...
Also, I want to say this: I understand why talk of suicide is not allowed here, the moderators want to cover themselves. But consider this: by not letting some who may feel they need to talk about...
I'm sorry, but do you really believe that the tired "accept things for what they are" speech is going to help someone who already so close to the edge that their own end feels like the better...
Uh, you mentioned a lot of vagueness. Can you be a little more specific with this crap they're trying to feed your brother (wow does that sound weird!)...
I think a lot of young people go through a time of questioning this. The reality is, yes, almost everyone on Earth works for someone - even those self-employed. They're still working for their...
I've been through medical Hell since I was born 30 years ago, but I don't have this, and to be honest, I can't pretend to feel what it may be like. There is no real 'making people get it' if they...
I've been on dialysis for three and a half years now. Before that, since I was born, I was frequently put through various medical procedures and interventions on my body, and never in this process...
The thing is, I want it to be violent. If I pushed for it, I think I could get doctor-assisted suicide, but I don't want doctors having anything to do with me or my death. You still have the most...
No, I don't want a hospice, and an attorney, an, in particular, a doctor, would never understand what I want. I want to die a brutal and violent death. A death unrelated to medical treatment or...
What? Talk to a doctor about THIS? Doctors and nurses don't understand feelings and psychological damage of this kind at all. I'm looking around for a support group, but if I talked to a doctor...
I've been in frequent bodily pain since I was very young, now I'm a couple of months past 30. I've been in prolonged painful treatments over and over, and although I'm trying to last it out so I can...
How did you find this out? If it was a doctor's word, I wouldn't trust it at all. From my own experience, I've been misled far more than been told the truth....
To reply to power49 and pitmom: My family doesn't exactly "make me want to die", it's the doctors, nurses, hospitals, and prolonged treatments that make me feel that way. I hate them all, because...
I'm not putting all the blame on others, I've accepted plenty - but I also want them to recognize that they played a role in what happened, too. I also have a psychotherapist - and this has helped...
Well, if she pees a lot, then the one kidney is still working somewhat decently. When you say they can't find her kidney, do you mean the one that never grew or the one working one? There is...
I got into a fight with my Dad this morning, and I feel terrible. Yesterday, we took a very nice trip together to look at possible homes by a lake. We're thinking of buying a small family retreat...
Chronic illness is abuse of a sort, as it results in similar damage. It's interesting that you say 'guilt' upon remembering suppressed abuse. Abusers, family, and doctors thrive on blaming the...
I was asking for individual answers. I'm not asking that anyone give a general answer to whether fault matters or not, I'm asking for your individual experiences - did it matter TO YOU or not? I'm...
Happy Turtle, Yeah - again, not an answer to what I was asking....
You can talk to me again if you need to. My email is ...
Actually, no, I am not asking "how can I forgive myself?" getting by says that when she realized her fibromyalgia wasn't her fault, she was better able to cope. When I learned that my illness wasn't...
I feel the same way. I hate my illness, and I want it destroyed. Can you tell me a bit more, razin? Maybe there is a way we can figure out . . ....
Hello, I'm trying to learn about what happens to other people who have been chronically ill since childhood. It's different from chronic illness that starts in adult years. What I'm curious about is,...
I'm 29, going to be 30 in one month, and I have never had a relationship. I've never dated at all. Largely, that has been my choice, my doing, but it is also the result of tremendous shame that built...
Yeah, the rain comes down too hard and then evaporates all too quickly....
Oh, I forgot - you asked me how I control my depression. Well, for many years, I didn't. The thing about depression, that I am still learning, is that it's not something that can just be drugged and...
Your family and friends don't need to have been through similar experiences. They only need to allow you to open up to them, vent your feelings, and give you some validation and support. I know...
A transplant is a massive physical and psychological trauma, and you cannot count on the hospital to recognize this. A great many people experience depression after transplant, and it should be...
Well, that's the thing - I have explained my reasons, logically, multiple times. I have explained that I am doing all I can. I don't know if I'm considered noncompliant overall at the dialysis...
Other health issues should be becoming less of an obstacle. But what are these other issues? The programs I meant were good transplant programs - those that can deal with incompatible blood typing...
I am seeing a good therapist, but, no, my mental health status is not fine. I am still very close to choosing suicide. My intellect is intact, I think that's what you meant. A child who suffers...
What is the apprenticeship? College university is almost no different from high school anymore. The classes really aren't much more demanding, but, the cost of it will put you in debt for decades. Be...
That diet may help his health not get worse, but has his nephrologist talked with him about transplantation, and about finding a good program to get involved with, and what any complications may be?...
Talk to a psychologist, not a psychiatrist. A psychiatrist is for prescribing medication, and while that can sometimes help, medicines also have side effects, and, when you take multiple medications,...
Is anyone else really, really tired of doctors, nurses, and medical technicians calling them noncompliant, even when they are pushing themselves to do everything they can? I'm on dialysis three days...
I understand that you want to live on your own. I've thought about it many times, but there is actually a better strategy in gaining adult freedom. Here's the thing: The state of the world is very...
No. This type of kidney disease cannot be treated with natural remedies. I so much wish it was otherwise. I've suffered kidney failure more than once. Although there may be natural ways to help with...
What you should do is get yourself listed at a good hospital for a kidney transplant. Act quickly - it's a long process and dialysis is incredibly difficult, so try to minimize any time you may have...