1/10/13 Today I bought myself a gratitude journal. I bought two, one bigger than the other, just in case the small one wasn't big enough. I want to find at least 10 things I can be thankful for each...
Thanks S.C. :) For all your encouragement....
1/9/13 Today I'm grateful for... Love Friendship Change Opportunity Winter Break (Wooowee! Did all this really happen?!) _______________________________________________ I feel like I'm becoming more...
1/3/13 I'm not perfect, but I feel like I'm good enough. I feel like it's okay to be me. Today I'm grateful for Sincerity and the opportunity to express how I really feel no matter how painful 2nd...
1/2/13 Happy new year stkitt. Happy new years to everyone on this forum. :) Yesterday I met up with someone I knew for years who hurt me really badly. He had something to tell me. He told me the...
I think I need a hiatus. But thank you guys so much for reading and sharing with me. I've appreciated your help, advice and insight. :)...
12/29/12 I Wonder How Self-Help Got It's Power... I was 12 when I first started getting into self-help in the hopes of "fixing" myself. I was convinced I was broken. Years later I am looking at...
Thank you, st.kitt, for sharing this link. Your quote, "Nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know", is really hitting me hard today. Maybe I'll write about it sometime in...
12/28/12 Dear forum, I'm happy. My vacation was very good for me and helped me to see more of what I wanted for my life and helped me to realize that I was better able to handle situations that...
12/21/12 Today I'm grateful for.. Change in personality Change in outlook Change in interests Change in people Change _____________________________________________ Those Pivotal Moments I don't think...
WElcome to the group gizmo. :)...
12/20/12 Today I'm grateful for... Mental quiet God's infinite mercy second chances Love Forgiveness Friends who never gave up on our friendship. __________________________________________ Today, I'm...
Dear thread, It occurred to me twice this morning that if I am to slow down and make serious changes, that this will have to be a permanent break and not a temporary one. I suppose I should be happy...
12/18/12 Today I'm grateful for... 1. Early morning meditations for the weary lol 2. Loving family 3. That long phase I went through in the past that showed me it's okay to be "on my own" 4. Friends...
Looking to That Special Moment When I Wake Up And Realize I'm Happy I stayed up until 3am looking for residencies. I had a headache, concentrating on the task was difficult, because all I could...
12/16/12 My Focus Has Always Been on the People When my counselor asked me where people fit into my life after telling her my interests, she kinda threw me back. I had no idea how to answer. My life...
A Trip Down Memory Lane I'm starting to remember why I had left people alone in the first place to focus on other things. It's because I felt they invested far less in me and in the friendship than...
Being A Friend... Is hard work and more commitment and time than at times I really want to invest in. Some people seem to do it with ease. I don't know if it's because they love people so much and...
Big hugs, stkitt! You're in my heart....
12/15/12 Today I'm thankful for 1. Good managers 2. A loving and supportive family 3. Being able to be involved in the world 4. Good friends 5. Study groups!...
Thank you, S.C. I'm starting to feel like me again, like I actually have some substance in me and not just hot air....
12/13/12 Today I'm thankful for 1. Good conversations 2. Supportive coworkers 3. Team work and friendships 4. Those moments when I get to know someone better and realize I like them more 5. Psychics...
New Phase of Healing I left. I need to take care of myself and this was echoed in the sentiments of the educators. I need to take care of me. I just keep crying. Every day it's a new tear shed and I...
12/12/12 Today I'm grateful for.. 1. Supportive Family 2. Those moments when your resolve is strengthened 3. A journal 4. Good music 5. Friends...
That's a good idea but I'm reluctant. I'm thinking about taking some bullet points of these though. I just wish there was a way I knew I was making the right decision by quitting. It really does...
Taking My Precious Time I feel like I owe my family a big apology and I want to start off my counseling session next month by doing so...I just don't know how to fill her in on all this stuff when...
12/11/12 Today I'm grateful for 1.Friends and family 2. The opportunity to do as I will 3. A cozy bed with triple blankets 4. An alarm clock 5. A printer...
Trying. It's not always easy. Sometimes I want to slip into the old pattern of going off and doing my own thing again. But I'm really trying to be a part of other's world and have them be a part of...
12/10/12 Today I'm grateful for... 1. Friends 2. Family 3. A Monday morning where I can hear Steve Harvey's strawberry letter 4. God and the mysterious way He comforts a soul 5. Cell phones...
12/9/12 I'm grateful for... 1. Woke up this morning and the television was off and my family are having environmental discussions. 2. Made a really long list of things I wanted to do in life. 3. Just...
I just don't get it...and what gets to me the most right now is that I don't feel the feelings I feel I should be feeling. My class is deeply distraught. Everyone was so close to her. But I wasn't....
Thanks S.C. I'm trying. I'm seriously trying. What happened yesterday really changed the way I see life......
If tomorrow were my last, what would I do differently? I wouldn't accept the status quo. I wouldn't give in so easily, I wouldn't just go with the flow. But yes, I'd go slow. "-- Life is too short to...
12/8/12 Yesterday was tough. I didn't wake up expecting to hear the news I did or to witness the extent of grieving that I did or to have this experience impact me the way that it did. But I did and...
12/7/12 I know I need to make some commitments this break. I just heard a word while watching a video on BPD that stuck with me. An outlet. I need an outlet, something to help me keep anchored in...
Thanks S.C. :) I'd give you a hug if I could. lol I only have loose sketches of what I want to do since I really suck at planning. But once I get things down in stone, I tend to be committed. I'm...
12-6-12 Feeling uninvolved and unproductive. The ebb has occurred. I completed all of my work and have nothing of value to do now that winter break is looming on the horizon. I just feel so removed...
12/5/12 Counselor asked that now that I'm on my way out of college, what my plans were. I told her. She equated it with money and status. I said nothing. just nodded and said "Okay...let's go with...
Thanks Scaredy Cat. :)...
12/2/12 The more I talk, the better I feel. My anxious reactions to things are subsiding as I continue to put things into perspective. Issues seem less like a mountain and more like...why was I so...
Hey everyone! Thanks for much for the words and I'm sorry I started this as a new thread when I wanted to add this to my old one. I keep doing that without realizing. I'm starting to have revelations...
Almost cried in the counselor's office as I told her about my experiences at my university. I tried to force them down. I told her about my experiences there with racism, with hierarchies, isolation,...
Hey girl. Thanks for your kind words, I'm actually on the verge of crying. I guess what makes this situation so hard for me to deal with is the idea that I could really "belong" in any situation. I...
Can I just say, congratulations on getting your Bachelors degree. I'm incredibly excited for you and hopefully I'll have an earned bachelor's degree soon too. Hope all will be well for you. You're in...
I'm so angry I could scream!!! I've been keeping all this in and it resulted in many of my anxious reactions. My counselor asked me why I keep using that word ("Crazy") to describe myself and I told...
Hey, that's kinda like what I felt too! Kinda...I never got scared when my symptoms arose. that's the thing. I knew I wouldn't die, that it's all in my head and just didn't bother with it, accepted...
It's nice, you know? Just to actually share because while forums and diary writing is good, it feels very solitary for me. I still feel like I'm talking to myself; hence, my username Soliloquy....
WEll because there's Panic Attacks/Disorder and then there's General Anxiety Disorder. And the two manifest in somewhat different ways. I also wanted to add that depression is also often times linked...
I decided to go talk to a counselor about my symptoms and experiences and I'm happy I did it. I initially thought it was Panic but that it was really really really mild, not at all what I knew panic...
I wanted to add: I don't feel paresthesia in my fingers and toes, just on my face and and neck area when pressure is applied like when I lay on a pillow Or on my back that causes a feeling of...