He no longer smokes inside or in 1 car....
Thanks. I guess there is really no way of knowing for sure that the smoking is what caused these health problems....
He said tonight that Chantix gave him nightmares & e cigs gave him headaches. Yeah, I guess my asthma doesn't matter. Or that if he would have tried to quit, that maybe he wouldn't have heart...
Karen: Good advice. Thanks. Just feeling a lot of emotions right now....
Its been awhile since I posted. Found out yesterday my bf has bladder cancer. He has had triple bypass surgeries, pacemakers, etc in the past. So now have to wait for his cardioloist to say its ok...
It's not like I am suicidal. I know that everyone has their time. Just doesn't make sense to me how some people that seem to be good, die early in life while I have a lot of faults, survive....
Whenever I hear about good people dying in vehicle accidents, I wonder why they were chosen to die when I have had 3 rollover car accidents with no injuries, 1 snowmobile accident (went thro barb...
You are very wrong in assuming that I am young or that he helps me financially (other than basic necessities). Or that I am not doing my best in housework, when actually I am doing more here then I...
Yes, I have a lawyer. No, I am not going to AA. And its fine if a dog has diarrhea or vomiting. Have nothing else to do....
I do love him. But I worry about the dog's health too....
I highly doubt that's possible. He is too old & stubborn....
What do I do @ dinner when he yells at his dogs for begging but gives in anyway? One is 17, one is 8. I have only been with him 2 years. 1 month and 1/2 living. The dogs didn't learn this behavior...
My sis has health problems. I think she could do babysitting or something tho. I would most definitely pay him back especially because this dui is my problem. I was thinking about posting an ad in...
Thanks everyone for their replies. I need someone's opinion. How do I talk to my boyfriend about finances? I don't work and he is retired. I am going to need help with this dui fees. I can't ask my...
Yeah, ok. I should be thankful for a roof over my head & food. Because this is the only way I deserve to be treated. Who cares if I dont get help or affection anymore?...
I guess I get angry when I get so much done while he is smoking a cigarette outside & by end of day is too tired to do any requests I have made for repairs or assistance....
Karen: I understand that its fair of me to clean up. I like doing dishes after meals. Just wish I didn't have to clean so much after him. He used to help me with the laundry, now he doesn't. If he...
Unfortunately, I live with him & have no where else to go. He expects me to do things for him like laundry & cleaning even tho he complains when I don't do it right. At least he cooks good food. I...
Jerk. Very verbal abusive sometimes with no remorse later. I try very hard to help him because he is a lot older & has health problems. But nothing I do seems good enough....
Omg, I need to leave for good. How can I be so stupid to give this man so many chances??...
Thanks everyone for their ideas & encouraging words....
Thanks Carl. I know my mistakes. I feel extremely stupid. I have tried meds, counseling, hospitals, religion, etc. Nothing works....
5. Went to bf's sister's (met her & husband for 1st time) house for 4th of July. Tried very hard to be a good guest. Washed the dishes even tho she had a dishwasher, cleaned the guest bedroom,...
4. Sis has many health problems & can't work....
1. Back with a bf that I know I shouldn't be with. Many reasons 2. 3rd (1st was reduced to reckless)dui court on August 5th. I need a lawyer but don't have finances 3. Parents (in another far away...
Just very overwhelmed right now. Don't know what to do....
I need someone to talk to but I don't feel like typing it all out if no one is interested....
Thank you, everyone, for your kind words. Please keep praying & thinking of me as I will for you....
Thanks. I know all of that. Hopefully, these feelings will pass soon. Yes. I know of animal shelters. For my 1st dui, I was required to do my community service there. I loved it but unfortunately...
I miss my friend's dog a lot. Even when my friend would be mean to me, I could still hug or go on a walk with the dog. Now I have nothing. Also, I am feeling like this is all my fault. Maybe if I was...
No taxis or buses either....
My car will be ready in a week to two weeks but it is in a town 2 hours from here. I need to find a way to get there. This town that I am in now makes me crazy even if I did have a car....
I don't think of my needs being more important than theirs. I understand people being busy or whatever. But can't I have just 1 person to rely on? Or am I just too terrible of a person & need to do...
I called the person who I thought would help me get out of this town and they acted like I should not have bothered them so I said I was sorry & hung up. I feel like even though I give people nice...
Thank u. My mom likes Corrie Ten Boom. Oh, if I only could have 1/2 her strength. She is 1000s of miles away right now. Ok, not going to cry......
My car from the dui/accident is repairable. All I have to do is pay the deductible :) I have ideas of who I can ask for help to get out of this town. I know there is going to be rough days ahead but...
Ok...
U misunderstood me. If he didnt talk to me for 12 hours when we usually talk all the time. when if it was him that left me, I would have wondered what was going on. But he apparently didn't care that...
Omg, I texted him. He has been back in town for 12 hours. We used to talk by text or phone all day. Now, i know for sure he doesnt love or care about me. Am i that terrible that he cant even think...
I am still @ same hotel. I paid for tonight, tho. Its too expensive. I hate this town anyways. The nearest bigger town is an hour away so I would like book asap. I feel stupid for not remembering it....
Ok, thanks everyone. But again, what do i do about library book & vacation cancellation? Do I text him or what?...
Ok. Sorry, I have another question. We were planning to go on this vacation to a expensive resort beginning of July. Do I ask him if I should pay for my 1/2? I know its best that I leave him but I...
Also, in my haste to pack today, I forgot a library book. Its not due til July but I know for sure my friend will not return it. Do I text him for it or what? I need to get out of this town in next...
Thanks, I know what you are saying. But I believe i was born by mistake. I have ZERO talents, I am ugly, fat, stupid, etc. Why have I had 3 rollover car accidents & only had some back pain when there...
My friend hasn't texted, called or come to hotel today. I am sure he has found that my stuff is missing by now. Makes me wonder if he even cares that I am gone. Its like that with everyone I meet. At...
Sorry, but I don't know how to find that?...
One of my biggest pet peeves is when I am lied to, so why say any of those things u mentioned & lie to myself?...
I just needed to vent. Don't need sympathy or anything....
I got my stuff out of friend's house when he was out of town. This isn't the 1st time I have left him. Why can't I realize once & for all that I am unlovable, that I am just a waste of time for...
I have no one in this area to help me. Do u think I am being crazy for being scared that he can come into this room @ any time? I guess I always thought it best manners to call someone before showing...