Yea one of the therapists I saw had me take a quiz on ocd the obsession part was spot on but no real connection to the compulsion just slightly, I did some research of my own and found that there is...
Also I faked my way out of the hospital because it scared the shit out of me, my anxiety went threw the roof, the beds were awful and there was no curfew so there were people in the halls yelling...
But what I'm afraid of is it is possible to be ashamed of something you actually like or want, my example would be a closet case homosexual living with a gay bashing family. That was just an analogy...
Scaredy cat I haven't played any violent videogames or watched anything violent since this started but it's all still going on. It's like I'm having an urge to play them too and without them I don't...
So I'd like to say I have no history of violence in my life That said about 3 months ago I started having vivid thoughts of hurting people (punching pushing strangling stabbing) I put myself in a...
Igm1942 that's the thing alcohol has the opposite effect for me, when I drink it's so much easier to brush off these feelings and thoughts, it's way easier for me to feel emotions and know what I...
It's just really confusing cuz at points it feels like I want to act on them, a few times when this all started there would be days where I just wanted to be alone and it was like I was thinking...
Scaredy cat and igm1942 I apologize of I came off as hostile or against the help you are providing, I'm just frustrated and confused. Although I have always felt with anxiety on and off I always...
Also igm1942 an example would be gta5, it made 800 million in the first 24 hours of release, I'd like to believe that out of all the people playing them they aren't out stealing cars or killing...
Scaredy cat The thing is I don't want to stop playing videogames, I think that a fake world to be someone your are not, hero or villain is an awesome thing, a way to feel all kinds of emotions and in...
But all of my closest friends play the same games. My friends are what you'd call new age nerds. And I know for a fact non of them would hurt a fly, all have no history of violence either, they are...
Also would like to add that when I manage to get distracted or not think about this I'm fine, having a good time or normal time smiling being nice, but I inevitably start thinking if I'm just acting...
So I am new here, but I really need help because seeing a councilor once every 2 weeks is not helping fast enough. I would also like to add that this will be pretty long but please someone read it....